This is quite scattered, but it’s all things I’ve been thinking about and it’s about time I get them out of my head.
“If you keep doing what you’ve always done, you’ll keep getting what you’ve always gotten.”
I have no clue where that quote actually originated, but it’s stuck with me since the first time I read it and is a good reminder to me to try new things/behaviors sometimes.
I’ve been gluten free for over 7 years. In this time, cooking has of course become a big part of my life. Especially in the beginning, if I wanted something decent, I had to make it myself. So when I heard people say they didn’t have time for cooking, I knew it was really that cooking wasn’t a priority for them and that if they really wanted to cook, they just needed to prioritize it and find the time.
Such is my life. Some could say that the reprioritization I’m going through right now is just like spring. A rebirth. Fuck that. I’ve hit bottom with some character defects, I can see how they harm me, now it’s time to change. What is important to me? My physical health, including the food I put into it and the exercise I get. After all, if I want to loose weight, these are the two things I need to pay the most attention to. My mental health. My boyfriend. Grad school. That about sums it up.
So the things I’m trying to make more time for include exercise, cooking, “school” work, the mental health activities I participate in and my significant other. It’s a short list, but we know it will keep me plenty busy as it entails quite a bit.
What isn’t important to me? The vast majority of what goes on on Facebook (I did a massive cull this evening cutting 3/4 of my friends list). People who don’t have time for me. Inconsiderate people. I guess it goes to the idea of “How important is it?” If it isn’t important to me, it just needs to go.
I’d like to start learning how to count calories. Not really because I want to count calories long term, but I’d like to get a week or so snap shot of what I’m eating and where my calories come from. I know that cutting a few things down or out would likely help me loose weight and honestly, there are some crappy things I eat. But how do you count calories when you make the vast majority of your own food? If anyone can be of assistance here, I’d really appreciate it.
I’ve been feeling like I need an exercise sponsor. Something like a 12 step sponsor, someone I can talk to about how things are going and someone I can get ideas and suggestions from, as we can see where my best efforts got me. I know a lot of times my biggest problem isn’t that I can’t figure out what the problem is, it’s that I can’t figure out what to do with it that is reasonable. And then I get stuck and overwhelmed.
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